So, I was sitting at the pc when I get an instant message on yahoo telling me that we need to talk. It was my Boyfriend. I said, "Is everything ok? Wassup? Are they hounding you at the job again?". He said, "All is cool, I just wanted to speak with you about something". We negotiated a time and met up at a diner for lunch. It was cool, I had a fettuccine bowl with shrimp chicken and broccoli. He had water and soup.
After the meal was finished he asked, "Am I enough?", I answered "Yes". He said, "Then what is it?" I was a little lost at this point. He told me that he knew about me cheating on him. My head sunk down. He said he was fine with it! I was shocked and turned about with confusion. I asked him to repeat himself. He did just the same and repeated the same words. What in Hell is happening here?
He said that he didn't have the sex drive that I was looking for but he sees that I truly care about him. He only asked that when I go out to other guys that I let him know who I fuck and who fucks me. My head is in space because this is sounding like a dream come true! I am thinking that there is a catch, no catch! this convo happened the day after Christmas. I
On Friday night, I wanted to hookup with this college professor, significantly older than myself, but having a playful and caring side to him. I called my dude and let him know I was meeting someone and he said fine and hung up the phone. We have been talking like every hour or more and the convo is so cool and mellow! I am falling for this guy little by little! He asked me to be open and honest with him and I want to be. I haven't told him about my HIV status yet. I am scared to in fear that he will never speak to me again! There is so much sexual tension between us that I know we will have sex eventually but damn, this will hurt I can feel it. It will hurt more if it comes out later, judging from past experiences!
My boyfriend knows I am cheating, and doesn't care, at least not very much. I am falling for a guy I am not being completely honest with, that is almost 3 times my age! Why don't I see these situations before they come my way!
After the meal was finished he asked, "Am I enough?", I answered "Yes". He said, "Then what is it?" I was a little lost at this point. He told me that he knew about me cheating on him. My head sunk down. He said he was fine with it! I was shocked and turned about with confusion. I asked him to repeat himself. He did just the same and repeated the same words. What in Hell is happening here?
He said that he didn't have the sex drive that I was looking for but he sees that I truly care about him. He only asked that when I go out to other guys that I let him know who I fuck and who fucks me. My head is in space because this is sounding like a dream come true! I am thinking that there is a catch, no catch! this convo happened the day after Christmas. I
On Friday night, I wanted to hookup with this college professor, significantly older than myself, but having a playful and caring side to him. I called my dude and let him know I was meeting someone and he said fine and hung up the phone. We have been talking like every hour or more and the convo is so cool and mellow! I am falling for this guy little by little! He asked me to be open and honest with him and I want to be. I haven't told him about my HIV status yet. I am scared to in fear that he will never speak to me again! There is so much sexual tension between us that I know we will have sex eventually but damn, this will hurt I can feel it. It will hurt more if it comes out later, judging from past experiences!
My boyfriend knows I am cheating, and doesn't care, at least not very much. I am falling for a guy I am not being completely honest with, that is almost 3 times my age! Why don't I see these situations before they come my way!
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Wow you got my head going in so many places! I actually at a lost for words. I appreciate that everyone is honest with each other, but like always I'm just going to read your blog as if it is a movie... can't really past any judgement, lol.
Enjoy your life...
ok so he knows and is fine with it. that's some pressure off. now....about this telling the new guy...betta do it ASAP. you'll save so much potential negativity and b able to move on free and clear
You know, sometimes we create our own prison. What is even worse is finding out the judge who will send us there.
Wow, As The World Turns couldn't draw up a more interesting story. All the drama, the sex, the deceit! Let's hope this one doesn't end tragically, I like happy endings.
You need to be honest as soon as possible. Things will only get messy
Ummmm, this is a juicy story. I can't wait for your next update. Hey by the way, is your boy free to do the same, you know, sex other men?
Wow. Captivating post.
I have no advice to offer, but the significance of what you had to say is not lost on me one bit. Trust me on that.
For the time time ever, I actually think Captain said something significant.
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Okay wow ummm man you ..... wow okay on a posstive note yessss for the college professor.... noooo for the not telling the HIV thing you better handle that. but boy what a post this is lol. Ya BF finally knows an dosent really care is leading me to believe hes doing the same as well bu thats neither here nor there. I say good luck an like everybody else please keep me posted i wanna know the outcome and yes MR JONES wasnt that a shocker i was expectn sumthn else from captain lol Maybe this will be a better year for all lol.
Happy New Years all.
Hmmmmmmm...interesting. I mean shyt if you like it I love it. LoL.
~Damnit!
Wow! It is amazing how open communication will allow ways even when you don't think there is one. Just like your boyfriend took your cheating in stride, if you keep that mentality with the other things... who knows. At least you will have peace of mind.
Please be careful my brother and not hurt this man that loves you so much. Honesty is a good thing.
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