I think I did it right this time...

OK, so I have a profile on one of those sex sites. Who doesn't right? but I said to myself let me delete my current name and come out with a new profile that was 100% truthful. I said that I was HIV positive and that I was in a open type of relationship. That puts everything on the table from the jump. Now lets fast forward...

This guy hits me up last night and asks me if I would meet him at a local restaurant for dinner. I said I really shouldn't because That is more romantic and I wasn't tryin to do that again... lol (refer to my last post). So he was like come on and even offered to pay! I said cool, alright, I'll go.

I get there and we are talking laughing and the usual topics come up with purpose to get to know each other. The meal was good. I had prime rib, garlic mashed potatoes and steamed spring mix vegetables. He even got me a glass of wine! I was agreeing with this guys personality already! He asked me if I wanted to go back to his place. Watch TV, have a drink... smoke. I politely informed him that I didn't smoke, he said no problem. I said OK (he just purchased me an outstandingly delectable meal, I can spend some time with him).

I get in the room and he said get comfortable. he left to check on something and said he would be right back. So I took my jacket and shoes off and was sitting there on his bed watching TV. So you know he lived with his momma, that's why I was in his bedroom! He comes back with briefs on. I was realizing what he meant by get comfortable! lol He had a great body, muscled cut and all!

We are now laying on the bed 69ing each other and he asks me if I am a top or bottom. I said versatile. He said nothing! He turns me over and eats me out! I'm thinking I'm going to be the bottom today. I lay there and toot up the bootay and enjoy! 5 min later he turns me around and gives me a thorough blowjob. left my dick wet and glistening. He sat on it. I was like huh? He sat on it!

No condom, no lube, and he made my dick fit in! I was like OOOOooohhhh Myyyy Godddddd!!!! It has been such a long time, years, since I topped someone raw. It was sooo good! It felt magnificent. It was warm, wet and clean, go figure lol! It was only a few moments before I wanted to climax. It was so good! He gets off and gets on his back and said go for it! I get in and I let him have it. He said don't nut in him and I was cool with that. We handled business and, together, we covered his stomach. That was indeed a glisten.

Afterthought, as I left his house, we never had a convo about me being positive. It is clearly there in the profile, should I have brought that up? Did I do enough by placing it in the profile? I'm kinda feeling bad about this...

How messed up is this?

My Ex calls me up outta the clear blue sky and says what are you doing? I'm like nothing. He says well I'm in town and I'm going out to dinner and I don't like eating by myself so would you come with me. I said sure!

I get to the restaurant and we exchange pleasantries. Nothing major, nothing out of the ordinary. He begins to feel my leg and I am like turned on now! Keep in mind of my sex history and how this would seem normal. I felt this was unacceptable. This man makes love. I don't share intimacy with all those other dudes, I just share my dick and my nut! So we finish our food and leave walking in the parking lot. We start talking.

He invites me to his hotel, I declined. He tells me that he knows I want to. I agree by saying I do. But things are different now I have a man! (that just flew out of my mouth, Whoa!!!) He said do you remember my dick. I said yea. He asked if I remembered the way he held me. I said Yea. He wanted me to take a stroll down memory lane in the many times we turned every inch of all of the hotel rooms he stayed in a cum zone. I did in fact reminisce on those times. I was as hard as a hammer and leaking like a hose. Again he asked me if i wanted to come over. I replied no, but in a hesitant tone.

He gives me a hug. I hug him back and we are embracing each other. His massive meat against my meaty mass and he whispers in my ear, "are you sure?" I said, "NO!" He leads me to his Chrysler 300 and we are off to the hotel.

We enter and we laid on the bed clothed, still stabbing each other through our clothes. More hugging and caressing leads to clothing being taken off. We did the 69 for awhile. the moaning and groaning may of been heard across the hall. It was passionate head. He asked if I wanted to jerk off and I replied no. I stated I wanted more and he said no. HUH?

You got me hot and bothered for you and wantin that dick and you say no and offer to jerk off? I coulda did that on my own at my house! He asked what was wrong and i told him that he was wrong. Playin with my emotions and building me up for a sudden crash. I asked him calmly if i was gonna get some dick tonight and he said no. I dressed and left.

How messed up was that?